No, Cas-- [ dean steps after him, hand sliding to cas' arm. ] It's just none of this is simple, okay? You were here before-- and at the beginning? You were nuts. Just-- back to bumblebees and stuff, y'know? And after that, I don't know, it was a good thing if I got any signs of life from you. Ever.

Then back home...

[ everything is so complicated. cas had tried to kill him, and now he doesn't know if cas is alive back home or not anymore. ]

I want to trust you, man. I want things to be okay but it'll just take some time.