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C H A R A C T E R I N F O R M A T I O N
Name: castiel
Canon: supernatural
Original or Alternate Universe: OU
Canon Point: 8x17 (goodbye stranger)
Number: 166

Setting:

The general context of the world is the exact same as ours on the surface in comparison to locations, (most) historical events, and technology. However, you might want to check out the library for anything supernatural.

History:

In sum, Castiel initially arrives on earth in order to help stop the breaking of the 66 Seals. By order, he has pulled Dean Winchester from Hell and resurrected him--even going so far as to mark him with a handprint on his shoulder. Later, after several failed attempts at communicating with him in his true form, he takes a vessel (Jimmy Novak) to say that God has work for him; a demon by the name of Lilith is destroying Seals in order to free Lucifer. He has to stop her from doing so.

Several instances of his first appearances are kept short. He sends Dean back in time, gives them other tasks supposedly ordained by Heaven. He's sent to interact with the Winchesters over the course the first season with the intent to deliver orders, etc. At one point, he arrives with Uriel with the explanation that they are seeking out a fallen angel (Anna) because she can hear angel radio, and afterward, having found her, Castiel shows regret in having to kill her. Yet, things are never really that simple. Before this can happen, they are met by the demon Alistar. Castiel nearly loses, though he's saved by Dean in the long run, and both of them are saved by Anna when she regains her powers. wet blanket Uriel is mad (as per usual), but Castiel stops him from letting all those frustration out on Dean. Later, however, Castiel begins harboring suspicions against the other angel and confronts him about it. With that comes the admission that he and other angels are also working to free Lucifer because they are jealous and lonely without good ol' dad around. He's asked to join their efforts, but he refuses. Through the fight that ensues, Castiel nearly loses, but Anna shows up to kill Uriel before he can finish the job.

Because of this, the discrepancies in Heaven and the orders he's given, as well as the influences of Anna and the question of morality, it begins to fill him with doubt.

When he shows up again, it's to impress upon them the importance of the Prophet and Chuck's role as the Prophet. He's unable to help Dean save Sam from Lilith because of this, but he hints at the fact that the archangel protecting him will descend if the Prophet is ever in any sort of danger, thus secretly giving him the knowledge to save Sam. Between the lull, Castiel tries to arrange a meeting with Dean through his dreams, but when they meet up, they discover only Jimmy rather than Castiel. Jimmy hardly remembers anything about being a vessel, which leaves Anna to guess that Castiel had angered his superiors enough to cause him to return to Heaven. Castiel eventually returns, taking Claire, Jimmy's daughter, as his vessel, but Jimmy begs Castiel to take him instead and spare his daughter. Castiel agrees, and after all is said and done, when Dean tries to ask him what it is he'd wanted to meet about, he only answers that his loyalty is to Heaven, not to anyone else and especially not to Dean.

Later, Castiel convinces Dean to swear allegiance to God and the angels under the impression it would keep Sam safe. Eventually, too, Castiel releases Sam from where they're keeping him locked up (as he's detoxing from demon blood) in Bobby's panic room. When Anna confronts him about it, it's appears to be a trap; other angels arrive and capture her. As Sam grows closer to reaching Lilith, both Castiel and Zachariah impression Dean in an idyllic waiting room so he can wait out fulfilling the role he has to play in stopping the Apocalypse, i.e. becoming Michael's vessel. Dean, however, constantly asks to see Sam and eventually asks Castiel to help stop the final Seal from breaking. Castiel refuses at first, but he eventually returns there, ready to help. He takes him to see Chuck for information about Sam, and since this has been unwritten, Raphael decieds to descend and take matters into his own hands. Castiel sends Dean to Sam and stays behind to hold them off, but he killed, his vessel exploding to pieces. Yet, he manages to return later, still in the same body, killing two angels in order to save Sam and Dean. He's unsure how he was resurrected but hints at Zachariah that it might have been God's doing. He then proceeds to carve Enochian sigils into the Winchesters' ribs to hide them from all angels, including Lucifer. Insert some magic angel time where he's not around, and when he decides to return, he borrows the Samulet in some crazy effort to find God, since it burns hot in His presence, and disappears again. Unfortunately, he's been completely cut off from Heaven due to his rebellion and has lost some of his powers--which includes his ability to heal. He stays in contact with Sam and Dean via cell phone to assist as needed.

Castiel eventually helps them retrieve the Colt and joins them in their hunt for Lucifer. Like all the other times before, he wanders off (due to Reapers rolling through town) and soon becomes imprisoned by Lucifer, who tries to convince him to join his side. He refuses and manages to free himself, though he's minus yet another power this time--the ability to kill demons. When the Winchesters fail to kill Lucifer, he takes them to safety and exhausts most of his remaining power to send them back in time to save their parents from Anna as well as aids them in their battle with Famine. However, he's still caught in Famine's influence because burgers. (Really, it's Jimmy's hunger for red meat and his weakened powers that make him susceptible.) When the brothers are killed by a hunter, Castiel tells them to find an angel named Joshua, who communicates directly with God. Despite Joshua saying God is alive, he says He's apathetic toward the apocalypse; saving Sam, Dean and Castiel makes God feel as if He's done enough for them. When this message reaches Castiel, he takes it badly and drinks an entire liquor store to cope with the news. Sam summons him for answers concerning a specific town, upon which Castiel reveals that they are dealing with the Whore of Babylon and provides the stake that can kill her. Since he's no longer a true servant of Heaven, though, he can't do it himself. He retrieves Pastor Gideon so he can do it; the Whore casts a spell on him, leaving him in great pain, and Dean stabs her instead, revealing him to be a true servant of Heaven.

Castiel helps to keep Dean from becoming Michael's vessel. He finds a resurrected Adam, the Winchesters' half brother who had been killed before by ghouls. When Dean escapes and tries to get in touch with the angels, Castiel finds him and attacks him for making it seem like his rebelling against Heaven was worthless. Later, he carves a banishing sigil into his own chest in order to clear the way for Sam and Dean to attack Zachariah and save Adam. The effects of using this sigil land him somewhere out on a boat, completely human. However, he's still able to defeat Pestilence with what's left of his angelic strength and assists Bobby and Sam in preventing the nationwide distribution of the Croatoan virus. Castiel loses his faith when Sam fails to overpower Lucifer and is possessed. Dean refuses to give up, and he uses a molotov cocktail of holy fire to temporarily banish Michael in order to buy Dean time to try reaching Sam. Lucifer, angry that he attacked his brother, explodes Castiel.

He's resurrected once more by God after the brothers manage to stop the apocalypse, more powerful than he had been before. He heals Dean, resurrects Bobby, and returns to Heaven in order to restore order and become its new leader.

A year after, Castiel returns so that he can get Sam and Dean to help find the Staff of Moses along with a bunch of other weapons of Heaven that were stolen during the war. They discover that Balthazar stole them and sold pieces of them to people in exchange for their souls. They confront Balthazar but are interrupted by Raphael. However, before he can take his revenge on Castiel, Balthazar destroys Raphael's vessel and sends him back to Heaven. Castiel sets Balthazar free when he's trapped in a ring of holy oil so that his debt is repaid. More angel time magic, and Castiel "diagnoses" Sam by asking him several questions (as he is not the same as before). Castiel assumes he knows what is wrong and reaches inside Sam, finding that his soul is not where it's supposed to be. That it's still locked in the cage with Lucifer. Soulless Sam later tricks Castiel into coming back to help them, and when he shows, Sam threatens Castiel by saying that if he doesn't help them, he'll hunt him down and kill him. Knowing that Sam couldn't, he helps them anyway. Castiel interludes and watches porn simply because it was there.

Eventually, he discovers Sam and Dean are working with a demon named Meg. When Crowley says he can't retrieve Sam's soul, Castiel burns Crowley's human remains. He confesses to the brothers that the war in Heaven isn't going well for him and he'd much rather be on Earth with them. Yet, he leaves to continue fighting and promises to take care of Crowley's captured monsters. After acquiring the holy weapons from Balthazar, Castiel says that he now has a military advantage in the war. Yet, it seems limited because he orders Balthazar to save the Titanic, empowering even more souls to his side. Fate, however, works to undo this, and eventually, Castiel has to take the loss and re-sink the ship. More shenanigans are afoot as Castiel sends Sam and Dean back in time to retrieve the ashes of a Phoenix so they can kill Eve. Yet, his lieutenant, Rachel, interferes before the 24 hours is up - the time he has to retrieve them from the past - and attacks him over the plans he has. Castiel kills her but is left weakened from a wound she inflicted on him. He teleports to Bobby's and hides himself with a sigil from the other angels. He manages to retrieve the brothers after taking a boost from Bobby's soul.

They discover that Crowley might have faked his death and is probably still alive, suggesting that Castiel burned the wrong bones by mistake. Eve tells Sam and Dean this, repressing Castiel's powers as she is older than he is. When Dean kills Eve, Castiel's powers return, and he kills all of her monsters. Castiel says he will look into Crowley's survival; yet, he's seen with Crowley, who is very much alive. He and Castiel had come to an agreement of sorts and are working together as partners. The brothers learn that Castiel is actually the one who (partially) raised Sam from Hell, though he purposely left his soul behind because of certain complications with the cage. They also learn of his partnership with Crowley when he lets it slip he's spying on them. Through a series of unfortunate events, Castiel is heals Lisa Braeden's wounds, after she's possessed and wounded by a demon, and at Dean's request, erases her and Ben's memories of Dean. It's a final act of friendship between them though they are now enemies because of Castiel's betrayal. He also spends a significant amount of time investigating Lovecraft's opening of Purgatory in an attempt to find a way to open it himself.

Castiel tricks Crowley and Raphael later, eventually absorbing the souls from Purgatory. He demonstrates his new powers by killing Raphael with ease. Sam attempts to kill him with an angel blade, but it has little effect. Castiel explains that he is no longer an angel, declaring himself their new god. He gives them an ultimatum then: confess their loyalty to him or be destroyed. He also begins exacting his supremacy over the planet, working miracles and punishing hypocrites in the same breath. However, his vessel soon becomes damaged, and he begins to lose control of his power. It's learned that he absorbed some creatures known as Leviathans from Purgatory; they will destroy him if he doesn't release them. Castiel seeks out the brothers' help and reopens the portal with Death's assistance. Though the souls are returned, the Leviathans evade being sent back to Purgatory and take control of Castiel's vessel. It quickly begins to break down, and it explodes in a nearby water supply, only leaving behind the trench coat Castiel had worn.

Yet, it's revealed that Castiel survived. When the Leviathans left him, he crawled out of the lake and met his future wife Daphne. He is, however, amnesic due to the experience but has still kept his angelic powers. He goes by the name Emanuel and uses his powers to heal people, though he doesn't know where the power comes from. Dean searches for him, and after saving his wife, Castiel agrees to help Dean despite not being told who he really is. They're joined by Meg, but upon reaching the hospital, they find it surrounded by demons. Since Castiel is the only one who can take them all, Dean has to tell him the truth about who he is and insists he has the ability to kill demons. Castiel manages to summon enough power to kill all of the demons, and by doing so, it restores his memories. He's remorseful for his previous actions, and he finds Sam in time to save him from a demon torturing him and tries to restore his mental wall. As it's completely gone, Castiel is sorry and transfers the problem to himself and becomes haunted by visions of Lucifer like Sam had been. Castiel is committed to the mental hospital but remains safe from demons as Meg knows he's alive and takes a job there to (presumably) look after him.

Castiel is awakened when the Word of God, a tablet, is found by Sam and Dean. Despite having been driven insane by his torment, he explains that taking Sam's pain has helped relieve some of his past burdens. He then explains about the tablet but cannot read it. Thus, enter Kevin, the new prophet of the Lord. An angel named Hester tries to kill Castiel out of anger for his past actions, but she's instead killed by Meg. The other angel offers Castiel a chance to return to Heaven with him, but Castiel says he feels he no longer belongs there. The angel leaves, taking Kevin to safety. Castiel says he doesn't know what he's going to do next and leaves them after giving them his blood. After he learns that his garrison had been wiped out, Castiel has Meg take him to Sam and Dean so he can explain what he's discovered. Crowley shows up, but as Castiel no longer wants to fight and is apparently insane, he decides to put off the feud with Castiel until he's sane again. Crowley tells the Winchesters that Castiel can help them kill Dick, the leader of the Leviathan. He refuses to help them because he doesn't want to fight, and after he disappears to retrieve a board game, Meg explains that since Castiel had the Leviathan inside him, he's able to tell them apart--even in human form and knows which would be the real Dick Roman. Castiel eventually agrees to help, and with Meg as a distraction, they invade Sucrocorp. Together, he and Dean manage to kill Dick. Yet, as a result of his death, they are sucked into Purgatory along with Dick's soul.

Castiel disappears then, leaving Dean alone there.

His time in Purgatory is spent with Dean and Benny, fighting to make it toward a portal that will take them back to the human world. However, when there, Castiel "lets go", leaving Dean and Benny to escape without him. He does, however, reveal that he'd left Dean to keep him safe from the Leviathan and other monsters that are angry at Castiel, but Dean refuses to leave Purgatory without him. Yet, he does eventually escape there, though he doesn't recall that an army of angels were sent there to rescue him. They also erase his memory of the "check-ins" he has to discuss the Winchesters' plans and is forced to tell them about their progress in the search for the tablet. Back to full power, Castiel helps them save Kevin from Crowley, who has been adducting future Prophets, and destroy the tablet to prevent Crowley from using it. he retains half while Crowley flees with the other half. After, Castiel cuts off his ability to listen to angel radio and decides to become a full-time hunter to avoid facing the other angels about what he has done. He proves useful on a particular case, and while listening to both Sam and Fred, a man who had the ability to warp reality with his mind, decides to return to Heaven to try to make up for what he's done. Yet, he's forbidden by Naomi, the angel who ordered his rescue from Purgatory. Instead, he stays to watch over Fred and accepts that he can't run from what he's done.

Castiel turns back on angel radio and travels around helping people who are in need of help or healing. Naomi eventually orders him to rescue an angel named Samandriel. With the brothers' help, they are able to break into the warehouse he's being held and tortured, and Castiel saves him. He takes the angel outside, and Samandriel begs Castiel not to return to Heave and tries to tell him that "they" are controlling him. Before he can explain, Naomi forces Castiel to kill him for being a traitor. She convinces him that he is a hero because the tablet puts all angels in danger and Samandriel had told Crowley about it. He tells Sam and Dean that he'd been forced to kill Samandriel in self-defense and he is taking him back to Heaven to put him rest. Yet, he's actually going back so that Naomi can determine just how much he broke.

Castiel becomes completely brainwashed by Naomi and kills thousands of copies of Dean ruthlessly. He's sent to find the angel tablet, torturing and killing demons who are also looking for it. It draws Sam and Dean's attention, and upon rescuing Sam, he claims he's searching for the second half of the demon tablet and that the demons are searching for the parchment that will allow them to translate it without a prophet. All under Naomi's orders, of course. They head to a crypt, joined by Meg, who Castiel is able to make a case to Naomi in order to keep her alive. He and Dean locate the angel tablet, and since it's warded against angels, Dean has to retrieve it. Namoi orders Castiel to kill Dean, and though he fights it, he has no control over his actions. Dean manages to break through to Castiel just as he's about to kill him (i need you, we're family), and he breaks free of Naomi's influence. He heals Dean and takes the angel tablet, which severs the connection and control the other angel has had over him. Castiel continues to travel with it, trying to stay one step ahead of Naomi and her army to keep it safe. Naomi lies to Dean about Castiel and claims that he misinterpreted everything she'd told him and is still insane. Dean, however, doesn't believe her. Captured by Naomi's forces, the angel tablet is claimed by Crowley after one of Naomi's angels betrays their location. It gives Castiel time to escape and reunite with the Winchesters.

With Heaven in chaos, the scribe of God, Metatron, convinces Castiel that they must seal the gates of Heaven in order to force the angels together to make peace. Each trial is performed by Castiel, but in the end Metatron reveals his true intentions: he plans to exile all the angels from Heaven for forcing him to leave. Castiel's grace is the third ingredient to closing the gates, leaving Castiel human and banished before all the other angels begin to fall as well.

Personality:

Castiel is an angel of the Lord. Cliche, probably, but it sums up the whole of him to a point.

In general, he exhibits behaviors typical of his other brethren when he first makes an appearance in human form: little emotion, relatively calm, aloof. He lacks compassion in relating to humans as a group and as individuals. He doesn’t understand their lack of obedience or the feelings they express, continuously confused by their assertion of free will, and it often clashes with his perception of them as well as the orders he is given by his superiors. In fact, as little as he understands them as people, he understands objects, phrases, and references even less. Still, the moment he drags Dean from Hell and entangles himself with the Winchesters is the beginning of much change for Castiel. If anything can be said of that, he’s determined, and that determination drives much of him.

His time spent with Dean and Sam, as well as on earth, become a slow immersion of learning human culture as well as what differentiates humans from angels, what it means to be human. He’s loyal to a fault, but after some time, he confesses to Dean that he’s beginning to have doubts of his own about the orders he’s given and how he’s spending his time otherwise. Is it right or wrong? Is there more beyond a simple command? It’s a very big concept for someone like Castiel; thinking on his own, in that manner, tends to not have a happy ending. Re: Lucifer, Anna, humanity. Eventually, it causes him to rebel against heaven. Yet, it’s not his faith that’s rocked at the foundation. He still has absolute love and trust in God, admires humanity for its beauty, and in those things alone he sees conviction for his actions, though he continues to be naive as to the consequences of them. Most of this is seen later on, beyond season five, when he develops something of a god complex--in God’s absence, he feels it his responsibility to carry out retribution and punishment in an attempt to show mercy, taking back his opinion about free will and how all things must be ruled to maintain some semblance of order. His motivations become rather twisted, too full of pride, even if they are meant with the best of intentions.

Slowly but surely, the rather strict adherence of black and white that had previously been Castiel's world begins to dissolve. Heaven's in chaos, and he takes upon himself the duty of trying to sort that out. However, with that heavy burden comes some alterations to his perceptions and overall personality. Ultimately, he takes a whatever means necessary approach in order to save the world and restore Heaven to its former glory. Yet, with this particular mindset, it means that a lot of his actions (punishing angels who had worked with Lucifer and humans who are seen as hypocrites as well as blasphemers) are very morally dubious, which brings him into conflict with Sam and Dean more often than not. It’s the slow beginning of a budding complex, that he can do as he pleases (“needs”) and fix everything as it had been before. Castiel has grown into a position that it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks of him anymore; because he’s powerful, because he’d been brought back stronger than before. He feels that everyone has to do his bidding despite the consequences they may bring. During this time, he carries himself with an air of invincibility, which lends to the concept everyone has to do exactly as he says.

It also becomes evident that Castiel develops a strong sense of pride, and this drives him to do things he normally wouldn’t have done before. Such as making a deal with Crowley and altogether sparking a civil war in Heaven. Yet, it can be said that he does this due to the fact he knows he now has become more intelligent and knowingly outsmarted someone who is a master at making deals. So, upon absorbing the souls (including the Leviathan) when they open the door to Purgatory, where Castiel had been kind, reassuring but fierce, he is now cold and absolute in his decisions. He kills Raphael without any remorse whatsoever and demands that the Winchesters (and Bobby) accept him as their new god and give him their loyalty or he will destroy them too. Still, his lingering affection for them helps Castiel to realize that he’s out of control due to the Leviathan influencing him.

He expresses remorse and a mass amount of guilt for doing all the things he has done up to this point [ breaking Sam’s wall, killing countless others ] and swears to do what he can to right these wrongs. But things are never really that easy.

Beneath his exterior, due to the choices he has made to this point (opening Purgatory, taking the Leviathan into himself), what hubris he has displayed has become clouded by the mass guilt of what it is he’s done. Being resurrected after his body had exploded leaves him unstable and quite...simple. He sees things, once again, in their black and white nature, becoming somewhat uncertain of himself and his own actions in regards to assisting the Winchesters. Yet, pushing deeper, this is merely a coping mechanism in order to deal with the consequences—he’s running from his mistakes. Castiel is afraid of facing reality and taking responsibility for what it is he’s done. He has the death of many on his hands, his brothers and sisters, and the chaos that Heaven has become since God’s disappearance isn’t reassuring in the least. Sometimes, he is amazingly coherent, which indicates he is consciously aware of the circumstances, but it’s not until Dean digs into the wound and presses [ he needs to “clean up his mess” ] that things begin to fall into place. The old Castiel, the one with too much heart bleeds through.

This is a testament to how much Castiel has grown to care for the Winchesters alone and what sort of influence they have on him. While he has a more “profound bond” with Dean [ most likely due to the fact Castiel raised him from Hell and placed his mark upon him ], he has also taken considerable lessons from Sam as well. He’s learned the importance of free will and choosing, and with that has also come the realization that he has to take responsibility for the things he does--good or bad. Castiel is in constant conflict with his (more or less) angel programming and the pull of humanity, and both Sam and Dean do well to ease him through that transition rather than allow him the immediate crash course. Where Dean is the physical - habits, sarcasm, introducing Castiel to a numerous amount of “human” things [television, sex, etc.] - Sam is the mental. He shows him how to read people, offer sympathy to them to obtain the same results without overstepping boundaries that an angel might to get the same sort of information. They give him their strengths and enlighten him to the human disposition: what it means to be human, to feel, to be your own person. Though Hester claims that he’s been lost ever since he laid a hand on Dean in Hell, he’s come a long way in understanding those differences.

And despite having labeled Sam as an abomination, he views him as a very valuable friend in which he places his trust. There is absolutely nothing Castiel wouldn’t do for them, and as he’s said, he’s “more than happy to bleed for the Winchesters”.Though it's laced with sarcasm, there is truth to those words. First and foremost, however, they are his teachers and one of the greatest influences he has during his time on earth. They penetrate the defenses he builds around himself, and even through the moments he’s brainwashed by Naomi, his love for them, specifically Dean, proves to be more powerful than angelic intervention. Like countless times before, he resists killing them due to orders he's given.

Still, even trying to atone for all of this only continues to increase his awareness of what it is he’s done by manipulating the people who had trusted him. It’s a difficult thing to rebuild, and while in Purgatory, Castiel’s thinking becomes inevitably convoluted and backwards. He realizes he is not strong enough on his own to make amends or fix the things that have gone astray. Though these actions are done with good intention, it is not perceived that way at first. He abandons Dean in the middle of a monster-infested world because he thinks it will protect him. Castiel has a price on his head, the creatures he has released, put back and/or killed wanting to destroy him, and running, as always, seems to be the best available option to him. Even if it’s seen as a gesture of goodwill, a twisted right in a place of so many wrongs, it merely indicates that he would rather attempt to shoulder the brunt of his own problems and negligence than outright rely on others. He will not put them in danger, and there are other (more martyr-istic) ways to atone for these mistakes.

This sort of mentality continues to hold true even through his mysterious escape from Purgatory and his unknown consorting with Naomi. Still, despite her attempt to break, mold and conform Castiel to his original self, it isn't enough to erase the affection he holds for the Winchesters, for humanity. His faith might be questionable where Heaven is concerned, but he believes in them. To protect them and humanity, he is willing to sacrifice himself for that cause. Though he still runs from his mistakes, Castiel, above all else, is a fighter. He will do what he feels is necessary and take the consequences as they come. That, as he has experienced through trial and error, is what should matter.

Whether or not he thinks he’s worthy of forgiveness, it’s a constant struggle of right versus wrong for Castiel. He’s learned that there is nothing reprehensible about asking for help, but at what price will it come later? He’s wary, a bit on the paranoid side. Trust is a difficult thing to give when everything wants him dead, and he’s far too apprehensive to hand it over without truly understanding first.

Abilities, Weaknesses and Power Limitations:

For strengths, a list should suffice. As for weaknesses, Castiel cannot be killed easily without the use of an angel blade or other various anti-angel means. He can’t cross angelic warding and can be banished with the use of sigils or by a stronger angel, i.e. an archangel. Also, he can become trapped and detained in a ring of holy fire. If he must take a vessel, he is bound by the rule that he can only enter them if they say yes. Angels are not, as perceived, omniscient, though their knowledge can be rather extensive.

As far as power limitations go, I’d like to play around with this; strictly cut out some of his abilities while depowering him to a far more manageable level that won’t break the ship (or others).

→possession - kind of stuck in the vessel he’s got, thanks.
→projection - limited but still possible
→chronokinesis - nixed
→dream walking - only within close proximity
→healing - yes, but grows weaker with repeated use; larger wounds won’t entirely heal
→immortality - check, though it’d still be possible for him to become injured
→invulnerability - normal human levels
→smiting - nixed
→resurrection - nixed
→sedation - yes
→pyrokinesis - nixed
→strength - also normal human levels
→perception - limited to sense other nonhumans but mostly nixed
→telekinesis - limited by the object and its distance from him
→telepathy - nixed
→teleportation - limited to places within sight
→apporting - nixed
→invisibility - nixed

Inventory:

→ his clothes + trench coat
→ (1) angel blade
→ angel tablet + backpack
→ samandriel’s bloody uniform + nametag
→ (1) chipped coffee cup
→ (1) bus ticket to port costa, ca

Appearance: trench coat et al
Age: physically: mid-30’s, actual: “before humanity”

AU Clarification: n/a

S A M P L E S
Log Sample:

Even calm, he's alert.

It had been a blink—at least, it had felt like one. Now, he's taking in the stark interior with a quick roll of his eyes and examining his surroundings as methodically as possible. Almost like a nervous tick, pressing spread hands to the nakedness of his vessel's skin even as he settles on his surroundings and reading the number imprinted on his arm like it had always been there. Strange. He doesn't remember any of this. There is nothing to recognize, nothing that speaks of familiarity.

The majority of it, even then, is absently cataloged, finding it oddly difficult to concentrate beyond the moment and what memories slowly trickle through. He'd ran. He'd abandoned Dean - Sam and Meg as well - in order to keep the tablet safe. From them. From her. With such a price on his head, his unforgivable mistakes, it had been the most logical thing to do at the time.

This is not Earth.

He is sane. Or mostly sane. He is in control.

His state is a highly questionable one now.

Castiel wanders through the bodies around him, utter disregard for his nudity as he moves forward with purpose. He can't hear anything whatsoever, alone in his mind for the first time in a long time. Since Purgatory, it would seem. Whether or not that speaks of comfort, he doesn't know. His curiosity bleeds into confusion seconds later, palpable by the way he comes to a halt somewhere between the showers and another room adjacent to one he stands in. Logic does not comply with instinct in that moment, and he pushes his way through to reach the lockers, easily making the connection between the numbers there and the one tattooed on him. The contents--

He grabs at the coat and shoves his arms through it, touching the material and finding no reassurance in it. He needs to understand this, learn the details as quickly as he's able. Possibly-- There's a pause, abruptly cold, and if the shiver is any indication, very cold. His eyes drop closed, feeling his grace present but far too distant. When he turns, tries to take flight, he only continues to find himself stuck there. This is worrisome, dangerous. This is a problem. Castiel grabs the remainder of the contents, grateful for the blade and what must be in the backpack he clutches to him. He takes a look at the halls, the people beginning to fill the corridor as he stands abruptly still.

what have you done?

... is this his doing?

He very well could have said that aloud, but he needs to move, doesn't acknowledge it at all or think of it when he takes a step forward. Even if he can't fly... Castiel pushes toward the lifts and doesn't look back, in desperate need to keep the contents of what he holds safe. Out of sight, out of mind.

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